"Hello, welcome to life...please check all feelings at the door."~

I received an email this morning from a someone saying they had stopped by my blog and had some questions. It was awesome to hear, but having not even been to my blog in over a year, I felt a bit like some one had just come to the front door while I was dashing for the laundry room wrapped in a towel. My initial instinct was to make apologies for my inadequate blogging frequency and try in some way to convey the justifications of the past 2 years of my life. "Oh, he-he...sorry my mother-in-law died a horrible slow death from cancer." "Uuumm, I've had to move 3 times in the past year..." -"Yeah, I would have love to have written more but I was busy grieving the loss of 2 more babies, one of them an 18 weeker. Sigh. Point is- it would have sounded ridiculous. Life has been "nautical" to coin a phrase from my favorite show "Deadliest catch" WHICH, I might add, I am thoroughly addicted to like crack due to its complete irrelevancy to anything in my own life. (Yes, in Laman's term-"running from my own life") Any-who, what that email did do is spark me to shove off the instinct to hide in my misery. (Mello-dramatic but who cares) I can't simply wait to blog until I have something good to blog about. Let's be honest here, we could be waiting forever. If I have a bad day or a bad week or a cynical thought pop into my head that needs expressing, (imagine that) I have the right to blog regardless of emotion status. That's my new rule. Having said that, there are good days and good times to be recognised. They may be few and far between but that's even more of a reason to give them their due acknowledgement.

When I started this blog it was with the intention of having an outlet that was not my every-day regular blog in which I am a wife and mother obligated to strive for positivity and progression, steering clear of any and all negativity and or "RAVING". This is my safe place where I am free to have and outlet for, let's just call it..."the Hyde side". (Oooh, that would have been a good name for my blog too!)-Maybe I will just make that the title of my book I'm going to write someday instead.~